Tuesday, March 20, 2007
y bcum like dis??!!!
acutally i still feeling bad and regret about canceling the supper on the 18 mar. is not bcuz of him i cancel is bcuz i no mood liao. chef nag at mi for the whole day, staff ly shit den my mood oso go crazy lor. haiz
i ly to wrk w/ chef leong de. he is a good shi fu, nice person but he very strict when come to work. i do respect him but most of the time i feel stress wrking with him cuz he will nag and nag to mi abt my staff doing shit things, slacking ard etc... i noe he is pushing mi to handle my staff and his helping mi. but i oso dunno wat to do. they are ppl in my age grp, same age but i higher rank, same sch w/ dem too but i grad liao. sum wrk w/ dem b4 when im a staff. mayb i shld say i scare or pai sai ba. i oso dunno. most of the time im too soft and not firm, so hw they listen to mi. when i told dem to do things or wat they ly to give excuse, give mi face. i oso angry ma. so sumtime i wil hide inside office do things den chef wil said mgr shld b at the front line not in the office etc... haiz how lei??
michelle lei she will say i cancel buz him not goin which is not true lor. the day b4 i msg him he no reply den i oso dun care. den on tt day itself i wake early wear nice nice prepare to wrk and look forward for the supper de. morning i mgs him the last time stil no reply cuz tt time he promise he wil go ma den nw msg no reply. den i oso on feelin i jus as per normal wrk. jus tt whole day chef nag at mi, staff dun listen, no respect so i no mood to go lor. so regret u noe, chef ly look forward ly tt den i cancel i nv tell him cuz the day b4 he say he mayb he cannot go, den morning he oso nv say anything abt the supper i oso pai sai to ask cuz he already noe the supper is for my bdae de. haiz
u noe sum ppl say or the book say sum ppl on matter wat only can b frenz or god bro/sis but if cross over that line that frienzship or wat ever ship is it wil bcum NOTHING. i everytime avoid ppl but i really afraid he wil avoid mi too. all along i hv ly him for ard/ almost 2yr le. he oso noe it. but he stil treat mi the same as b4 nv avoid, jus tt he dunno wat to do w/ mi. haiz i treat him ly bro ly tt, wil msg or email him if i gt problem or trouble but 99.9999% he will nv reply de. i jus msg or email cuz i jus wan to fa xie. but nw i dunno y i feel ly he s avoidin or wat, jus feel diff. scare tt i really hv cross over tt LINE le. mayb i sensitive or wat but jus feel dis way. anyway i hv decide to stop to hv crush for him le but can make it anot is another story. muz stop liao.
i gt dis 2 reg customer, 1 of dem haven c him for sumtime le. gt once his sis cum to mi ask alot of qns, in the end s she wan to get my nos for her brother but i nv give. since den when he come i avoid serving him liao. den my another reg customer. he did ask mi a few time when i wil off den let him noe cuz he wan to bring mi out and he did msg mi 3 time same msg but nv reply. haiz i think soon he will b the 1 i will avoid next le. how lei?? reg customer lei. the other s our cook but nw in another outlet le. i oso avoid when he ask mi out and msg mi. hai y i so bad do dis kind of things. avoid ppl when i dun wan ppl to avoid mi.
it got me home
12:50 AM
